Thursday, February 26, 2009

 

Anger


I've been off the radar for a bit, and I apologize if anyone's been concerned.

There's been some RL stuff to deal with around here. Something quite horrible happened to my family this week and I had to deal with it. It's something I can't blog the details of due to possible legal issues in the future, but rest assured that nobody is harmed in any way, mentally or physically. If I've discussed it with you already in private conversation then you know what's gone down; if I haven't, then I'm sorry but I won't be doing so. This is something I need to keep close to my chest.

The issue was, and is, betrayal, by someone who purported to be a friend.

I seldom get angry. Oh sure, I rant, I rave, I run about screaming inappropriate (and sometimes incomprehensible) vulgarities, but I don't get angry. If something offends me I fire up, blog about it or rant to a friend, and then it's over. Done. Gone forever. Dust in the wind, as it were.

I know I bluster here, but the folks who've met me in person know that I'm generally pretty calm. I don't usually get upset over things; or at least not for any length of time.

For me, angry is a huge emotion and something that's not particularly healthy to be. When I get really really angry, I don't get unangry until someone's dead, and it doesn't even matter if it's me. I don't back down -- I'm unable to -- which is why I seldom start.

Unfortunately, this is one of those times.

(I'm sort of like one of those fucking dogs that bite you and then their jaw locks and they can't let go. Or maybe it's not a dog but a turtle. Or perhaps it's just my imagination but I'm pretty sure there's something that does that, isn't there?)

No, not for real dead. I'm not about to get a kitchen knife and go stalk someone. I'm not in any way physically dangerous, but some things are unforgivable, and attacking my family is one of them.

So for now, and for the foreseeable future, I'm angry. Loaded for bear kind of angry. And perchance just a little vengeful.

Someone's gonna pay.

And I suspect there will be rather a lot of very tight knitting.

Next post: pictures of snow, pictures of knitting, rejoicing in the silly creature that is Boris the trouser Corn Snake and perhaps some news about spinning, too. Stay tuned, it's not going to be all blood and bandages.

Comments:
Glad to see you back, glad no-one is harmed, and yeah, RL is a PITA far too often. This is why I have very limited friends...let's just say I can empathise. I try not to do the angry thing either...us Scorpios carry a grudge for freakin' EVER and well, it gets heavy after a while.

And I think it is certain dogs that do that. Isn't it breeds like bulldogs that had to clamp onto their prey?
 
Snapping turtles. I'm told they don't even let go when they're dead.
 
I'm sorry you've had to get angry. I've got nothing wise to say, just sorry to hear that it's happened.
 
Pit bulls and snapping turtles. Yup. I'm terribly sorry to hear that RL has come down this way this week, but I'm glad that no-one was hurt. Anger isn't a lot of fun at all, but sometimes it's entirely appropriate.
 
But most of is don't mind blood and bandages.

I hope it all works out.
 
Glad you're not dead, glad no one else is dead, but damn, people can be such assholes.

Sending love your way. And, it's Pitt Bulls. They will latch on and not let go. I've seen that IRL and it's scary as shit.

Big wet kiss.
 
Like a little old lady who is holding onto her purse in a bad neighborhood. You're not alone, honey.

I am very sorry that someone you trusted has betrayed your family. They will get what they deserve in time. It will be worth the wait. I promise.

xo
 
I sorry you are having to cope with this.
 
I am glad you are back, sorry you are angry (it is such a tiring emotion), even sorrier that you have reason to be.

Judi
 
Ferrets. Ferrets do that, though I think they maybe *can* unlock their jaw once they clamp on, but they just choose not to.

I'm sorry to hear you're going through some Angry Crap . . .
 
Wow, it sounds like life is being really sucky at you right now. Nothing hurts like betrayal. I hope things go ok for you. Anger will eat you.

(hug)
 
Yikes. *hugs*

Coffee soon. You can knit tightly, and I can crochet badly.
 
I am sorry that you have been hurt in such a way. The words may sound hollow, but the well wishes for you and yours, and for things to work out as they should for you, is real.
 
illegitimi non carborundum posterior tuum!

and as for the sobs, beware the wrath of the rabbitch.
 
Here's wishing to you the best of outcomes. Betrayal can be so painful.
 
No hole-stretching here once Mel arrived, but... he did bring me a whole bunch of Madeline with which I intent to roll around naked and drool!
 
I miss reading here so much! I miss those long ago morning chats too. I sure hope justice is served well chilled for you, nobody should get anyone that mad~neva go near the family‚ô•ox
 
I'm sorry to hear this. And I can totally relate. You would not believe what happened to me today. But it's more an in person or phone call story.

love you LOTS.

CHARLI
 
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